tuldok.

ahgdsajjh1234!@#$% - this is not profanity.waapeyngkk.
this is trash. this is my angst. huwag kang kumontra.

my sheer bliss is now whirling into an unbearable torment that is slowly pricking and piercing my psyche

haa.forgive me.paki balik naman aku sa aking cloud.yaey.shrekk.

ang pagbabalik.

Can I have just one freaking day spent sluggishly in the comfort of my room? Just one day. Well, not entirely used up to be lazy… which is absolutely ESTUFID... but I guess, a rest day would be perfect. Aaarrrkk. Huwala naman akong ginagawang tiring.. mothergoose just reprimanded me for being apathetic… lavet. Haha.

2006. Another year to be completely twisted. WAA eksayted aku…about wut.. ewan ku. Being twisted, probably. Kiyutness.

I know I’m evolving [d word.haha.pusits evolve u knoe] when…

Bushy eyebrows alarmingly start to worry me.
I decide on my own when to change my bed sheets. [waaw lapis congratulations.nyekekekek.PATETIK]
I take the initiative to teach mon mon mamonsturr [my annoying brother] about long division. I guide him in the perplexing path of learning by heart the multiplication table.*sniff*
I responsibly buy my own medicine. [pusit give yourself a pat on the back]
I become mindful about disposing my overdue contact lens. [achievement talaga to pramis!]
I eat gulay.WAHAHAHA.jewlogs.

I know. Rub it on my face… I’m pathetic.

~I talk to God, but the sky is empty. –Sylvia Plath~

eerrrkkk..i will be turning 18 this year..mygallywawee..i don’t want to. Seriously, do I look like I need to rush on being legal… I can pretend I’m turning 17.. no one will even notice. YEHAEY. Unless u read my blog.HAA.

An old acquaintance recollected the pleasurable days of my childhood. Sometime in 2005 as I was soberly at my gait, an old friend approached me with much zest and I could tell he was surprised that our roads have once again met. We have never been on a 5m radius since Stone Age. It’s funny because he happens to live just around our block. We used to be bus mates and if I remember it right my friends and I immaturely displayed fondness towards him. YAAAAKKKK. Puugaakk bata pa ku nun. But he was cute back then. Nyay. I hesitated whether I should type that… the ickyness [coining a nu term..soo mang gener-ish..HAHA] might pester me. Now, I am deeply binoy pig bothered. Do you know what he said when he saw me… isheshare ku eto kasi yung highlight e.. ‘waaw anlaki mu na..last time I saw you u look like a dork…’ I vaguely remember if the term he used was geek or dork nevertheless they are equally unkind. HAHA. FYI I am STILL a dork. Ang nasabi ku na lang skanya..after almost choking ‘haha..ay ang taba mu na ngaun!’ ayus ang comeback ku. HANEP. Aaaarrrkkk.

I am a dork. If I seem not to give the impression of one anymore..which I doubt..I have to tell the woooorld… I am a dork at heart. Weeeeeeeeeee!

happy new year everyone.peace.

why d0nt we?sleep all day.

i just suddenly realized that iv confined this bl0g in sullenness and resentment. there is s0mething wr0ng with me.hehe. i miss the 'brain cell p0pping sessions' where i usually rant ab0ut..basically..senseless stuffs..

whirl..suck me back to reality.

think of happy th0ughts..

~

"Let's lie d0wn on the gr0und and feel the planet's heart beating!" - By the River Piedra I sat d0wn and wept..

milky y0nder s turning gray.i wonder why.

today,i wont blabber about missing my hs fuuwets but instead...
hmmm.,ewan..
letz tok about KOLEHIYO.HAHA.
ok tul0g na..

sa totoo lang,feeling kupa rin naliligaw lang aku sa semf0l..nyahaa.hindi.u see..i hate my isk0oooo..HAHA.batet kam0?

kasi ayak0 ng pinipilit aku sa ndi ku gutung gawin.
ayak0ng sinasabihan aku ng ndi maganda lalo na kung mangagaling sa FROF.
ayak0 ng heels.peste.
ayak0 ng mga ta0ng ayak0.
ayak0 ng coed na ekslusib na nagpupumilit maging coed.[nyaa?labo]
ayak0 ng bwal slippers.
ayak0 ng hindi ku nakakapiling c tricia araw araw.at c g0k..c kawen..MADAMI PA.
gutu ku magsulat.ayak0ng mangalik0t ng pwet.
gutu ku maging shrink ni m0therg0ose.
gutu ku ng LEMONADA.
gutu ku kay CATEZ hehe.gagew.anu ba to.matchless ata yan sa nbs ng ROB.wakekek.
ayak0 sa malimali magk0mpyut ng grade.
ayak0 maging grade conscious.btet ba ganun mga KUMAGARAL ku?
ayak0 ng pilit ak0ng pinapasuklay.[anu ba to kahit saan naman ata may nagsasabi skn nento]
gutu kupa magpaka bata.nais k0ng tumakbo ng tumakbo [kasama c KITT!] ng walang magagalit.
ayak0ng mapa opis dahil sa huwalang kwentang dahilan.
ayak0 ng bantay sarad0.
ayak0 sa may locker ku.madaming lam0k.
ayak0 ng pinagkakaisahan na sumayaw magisa ng batebate..kakilakilab0t.ITZ FREAKING ME AWT.haha.
ayak0 ng century tuna wd rice na Php42..

haaay.bitter.hehe.

d0nt get me wr0ng..i like my iskul naman.it's just that..errrr..ano..baket nga ba?WUT IS WRONG WD SEMFOL??my puny brain cannot decipher. and if u think im overreacting, pray for me. nyahaa. i think il survive..wd much bitterness though..the thought of being a nurse someday suddenly gives a spark of..i dunno..hehe thrilling na sha f0r me.

so i guess i gave u a bad impression about my isk0ooo..ive expected m0re lang cguru.disapp0inting..but il live.

Lord grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change, the c0urage to change the things i can..and the wisd0m to know the difference.

Maari bang magtanong..dahil labis na rin ak0ng lumalay0oo.

ang mga chicks ko.

I don’t know what has gotten into me but suddenly I am yearning to be in the c0mf0rt of my HS friends..nangungulila nak0 seny0 mga poowet..cigi..i miss d skul na ren..hmmmmm..o?di nga?HINDI REN!!wahaa. ndi pala.. eh yung mga gur0?hmmmmmm..no comment. Dy0wk. some,I guess.. per0 I really miss st.hedwig..and st.m0nica..AY SHIYET bu0ng batch ku namimis ku na.. but this immediate urge to see my batch mates d0esnt quite c0nvince me to go t0 the h0mecoming next yr.. bat ganun kakasibat ku lang eh pinababalik na ku..isa lang masasabi ku..MALABOO ako.

Tas nawala pa t0ng tagb0ard ku..PAANO NA??nakakainis naman.

~I saw ur face.in a cr0wded place.and I d0nt kn0w what to do.c0z il never be with you.~

~c0z this angel has fl0wn away fr0m me..leaving me in drunken misery..i sh0uld have clipped her wings..and made her mine..f0r all eternity~

nyahaa. sinsamahan pako ni james blunt at ng orange and lemons sa aking pagdadalamhati.haha.gagu.what am I saying.

Tumalon kaya ako sa bangin,para lang iyong sagipin Ito ang tanging paraan para mayakap ka
::darna_kamikazee

wahaa.MANYAK.there are other ways man..achaka if I were you [I think im referring to the zinger] ayak0 sagipin aku ni darna. Eew.

Oh heaven kn0ws h0w embittered I am.

WTF happened to NVNCBL chatterb0x?

ampuu bat ang ir0nic..invincible daw.ULUL.

And the four right chords can make me cry
When I'm with you I feel like I could die
And that would be all right.
all right.

:semi-charmed life_third eye blind

i whimper at her sight.abn0y talaga ku paminsanminsan.buysit.

nga pala..

HUMPYBORTDAY KATRINA MARGARITA HAGURING DILIG.oy clasmates sa m0nday na lang daw ang libre nya..pinapasabi nya sa blaaag ku..WAHAHAHAA.juklang.BEHLAT.

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I woke up in my bed today. SOPRAYS!SOPRAYS! sa wakas. i can drool again in the comfy sheets of my bed. Im back to spending the slothful nights in the company of my trusty room. Haa. Tribute to mga pare sa minamahal k0ng kwarto. I slept in my parent’s room for the past weeks kasi we had to make room for my tita. AND in those nights of slumber, sleeping beside my indescribable brother..wala talaga k0ng masabe. I understand that there are some kids na super annoying that in jest we say pag tul0g lang sila mabaet. But my brother is different..waaay different..may adhd nga yun eh.. siya kahet tul0g naiimbyerna pa rin niya ku.

This is a brain-cell popping session for the pencil. Leave if my grumbles bore you.

Random thoughts again..

-I clearly thought that it was a nightmare..but my eyes glinted wide..yet it seemed to me that it was equally horrid to a real one.-

HAHA. im istufid.. see.. really random..bakt ba!ngaun na nga lang muli nag blaag eh..do u think I should publish again my previous posts?nakakatamad.. pero naiingeet aku sa fwends k0ng asenso ang blaaaggg..like my poowet..STUPS!!haha..kiyut ng blag mu pero mas kyut c jen d men..eyynggkkk..

I MISS MY HS FRIENDS. Let me quote the wisdom of tricia maria.. ‘HS FRIENDS ARE POREBAH.’ Nyahahaa.ayluvet.

Teka..magiincubus muna ku..
12pm and my dusty telephone rings..heavy head up fr0m my pill0w..who could it be?i hope it’s you. ::11pm

you’re an exception to the rule
you’re a bonafide rarity
you’re all I ever wanted
southern girl..could u want me?::southern girl

yak0 na..i shall retire and submit to my bed.gooooobay.

crap.

.umiistambay na naman ako.maybe il start posting here again.or maybe n0t.cigur0 isa lang..wala naman makakapansin na nagp0st ulet aku dba..s0 why n0t..ahumpf hilary DUCK.so u.. ang nand2 na nagbabasa kung nababasa mo man t0 please spark enc0uragement or watever..ay never mind.wag na ikaw magb0ther.oy im n0t reverse pysch0logy-ing..seri0usly..ewan.hah. typical me.EWAN.

.welcum to the dark side of the m0on..mmhumm..pumi-PF.

.another one of my feeble attempts to ease my frustrations..im reaching out to my komputurr again..actuali.friends..f0es..*whisper* help me..[parang yung mga c0rpse sa tru calling] mend my br0ken..what?ahm..ndi k0 talaga alam kung an0 ang br0ken..EEW mushy.ok like i said EWAN.

crap.im givin up on bl0gging..

...

Call it women's intuition

But I think I'm onto something here

Temporaryism has been the black plague and the Jesus of our age

I know I must sound opinionated

Maybe biased and quite possibly jaded

But sooner than later they'll be throwing quarters at you on stage

Who are you? When will you be through?Yea it's just a phase...it will be over soonYea it's just a phase

And I'm waiting for it to be over too.

Pahinga na to.
BaBuuy Baabuush BAh BUY!

on a hiatus..waapengg!

Aqueous Transmission

I'm floating down a river
Oars freed from their holes long ago
Lying face up on the floor of my vessel
I marvel at the stars
And feel my heart overflow

Further down the river

Two weeks without my lover
I'm in this boat alone
Floating down a river named emotion
Will I make it back to shore
Or drift into the unknown

Further down the river

I'm building an antenna
Transmissions will be sent when I am through
Maybe we'll meet again further down the river
And share what we both discovered...
Then revel in the view

Further down the river

:incubus

arundhati roy's..

Who was he, the one-armed man?Who could he have been?The God of Loss?The God of Small Things?The God of Goosebumps and Sudden Smiles?Of Sourmetal Smells-like steel bus rails and the smell of the bus conduct0r's hands from holding them?

-The God of Small Things

Bam Bam : barbie's cradle

I wanted the fire of the city
And the safety of home
I decided that i would still love me
When my youth is gone
I've many things in my mind
Oh so many kinds
But may your voice be the one
That i easily recognize
What i wanted was too big a dream
But i got you and i have everything
Whatever you say i say go
And we run all the way
If you wanna stop let me know
I will stay where you will stay
My heart is burning inside
From the things that you say
It's a pity what happens to night
At the coming of the day
What i wanted was too big a dream
But i got you and i have everything